Energy drinks... why?

    Why is it that there are a seemingly limitless number of Power/Energy drinks? 5 Hour Energy, Red Bull, Monster, Rock Star, AMP… the list goes on and on.

    I am now sort of getting hooked on the 5 Hour. I swear you can set your watch by this stuff. I drink a half bottle when I get up at 4 AM and at 9:00 the yawns attack.

    So any way why are there so many of these products and none of the Power Nap/Sleep aids? All I can find is the Sleepy Time and the Cozy Chamomile teas. Of course there is the Melatonin too and I have tried this but I don't think it did what I had hoped for. And there is the night time pain relievers and Nitol but these are really just antihistamines with no buffering. What I am looking for is that 2:30 pm feeling that in just one more minute I will die… Yawning till I unhinge my jaw, lie down on this nice comfy concrete floor… streaming tears… brown out brain fade feeling that will usher me off to the land of Nod like being hit by a padded bus. I want to be able to buy some thing called Coma or Blackout or Two Minute Warning (two minutes get your poop in a group) something with a punch not Sleepy Time Tea. I want something with the hitting and staying power of a narcotic. Something that hits like Demerol or Thorazine but doesn't leave you in a coma for a day after. Where is that stuff? Ambien is Great stuff. But you can stay awake with Ambien. I say stay awake. Your body can stay awake and some small portion, the insane portion, of your brain will stay up with it but the rest of your brain, the decision making; good judgment part of your brain, is off to sleepy time city so your body will do or say just about any thing. I loves me the Ambien. Some great things happen when your take Ambien… after you are reminded that they happened of course.

    I hope in the not to distant future that Ambien gets moved from the prescription classification to the OTC classification like so many other used to be prescription medications.

Is it any wonder Part Une

    Is it any wonder that apathy is so rampant in today's society?
There is no good news any where for any one. There is nothing to believe in nothing to count on nothing positive that sustains.
I used to think believe in the one man/woman one vote system of governance in America. That is gone.
It seems that the people of California turned out in an official election sanctioned by the state to change the constitution of the state to ban Gay marriage ala Prop 8. The vote as I understand it passed in favor and by something like 600,000 votes, a substantial number in any state election. But along comes one judge who wipes that all away in a single stroke of his pen. It makes me very dubious about voting. Why should I bother to vote if the courts are as likely as not to dismiss my vote. Why bother to take the time to read about any of the propositions ponder their consequence for my self or others, why bother when some one else is going to come along and do that "for me". Clearly I am too stupid or too ignorant or both to make such decisions. Why should I bother to even think about such issues.
Having said all that please don't get me wrong I used to be against gay marriage but I have, in the last couple years come to understand that my position was based on the notion that marriage was a religious tenant and that the 'institution' of marriage was a biblically based spiritual thing, a God created and ordained thing, and I believed that the bible spoke against homosexuality male and/or female. So, well, a few years of thought and investigation, isn't the internet a wonderful thing, I have learned that while it might in theory be such a thing, it's roots are some what less lofty or noble.
So and as many comedians have put it why should I keep the homosexual community from 'enjoying' the same hate, animosity, financial ruination that the rest of the community enjoys especially if no matter how many people vote to ban gay marriage if a judge thinks us all bigoted and backwards for holding these beliefs and voting out conscience that he will set us all straight and show us the error of our ignorant ways.

interesting learning experience

I had an opportunity to observe and 'learn' something about breasts this weekend.

It must be a very strange thing for a woman to have a body part, specifically her breasts, go from a principally recreational and ornamental state to a principally utility state.
After a woman gives birth to her baby and decides to breast feed her breasts somehow transform from a sexy private body part to a public concern body part. It seems that a woman's breasts become sort of a 'public domain, topic of conversation'. Every one is suddenly entitled to comment on issues surrounding breast feeding and her breasts in general. Not just specifically related breast feeding questions but general observational questions and commentary about her breasts as well. There is no way, I don't think, that most women would allow their breasts to be openly discussed in mixed company with out they were at an orgy or some other such gathering. Issues of nipple soreness, and nipple size, nipple color, breast tenderness, breast firmness, breast weight and size and milk quantities, how many ounces at a time... left and right... the list goes on.

And now the utility aspect of breast feeding. There is the whole discussion about how much water you have to drink in order to keep up adequate milk production, what foods and or supplements aid in milk production. "I have to pump X number of ounces every Y number of hours so I can have enough for her to feed at the last feeding because I don't produce enough at once for her to be satisfied and sleep the night through." The whole talk really begins to sound rather clinical and dairy related. It takes all the intimacy out of the mother baby relationship. I can see how a woman could begin to feel very much like some kind of milk dispensing machine. Suddenly her baby and her life, at some level, revolve around her breasts and her baby and the milk production for the baby, the time of day and the quantities of milk that she can produce, what she can or can not eat which will affect the milk taste the weirdness of being in the shower and having her milk spontaneously let down or worse yet hearing some other baby cry and spontaneously letting down in public. Having to ware nipple pads to keep her clothing dry... suddenly her breasts are no longer very sexy or intimate or private. They are just inconvenient baby food production units hanging heavily on her chest.

There are laws in some locals regarding breast feeding babies. In some places its is considered publicly ok and others it is not. As for me, I think a woman should be a bit modest about the process. I don't think it is fitting and appropriate to just whip out a boob and feed your baby right there standing on a street corner or on the bus. As much as I am in favor of publicly naked breasts I think that it is still not appropriate to be fully exposed in a fully public place, breast feeding a baby. I guess in my mind it is a private and intimate thing. That is not to say that I think it should be illegal. I just think that a modicum of decorum should be observed is all. Use a blanket to cover up the proceedings. There is the possibility of causing an "Attractive Nuisances" condition. Some poor slob walking down the street might be caught unaware and find him self staring and step off the curb in the a fore mentioned staring unaware state in front of an oncoming bus. I can think of dozens of scenarios like that. Clearly I am conflicted about this. Americans are not yet ready to see naked breasts in public with out some level of shock and distraction. I am very in favor of changing that. It seems only fitting that if men can go around on a hot day with out a shirt women should be afforded the same consideration. Alas, I don't see that happening any time soon.

I can not imagine being involved in the the conversation like that regarding a man's dick. Clearly there is no correlation, but assuming there was for some reason that would be a weird conversation indeed... How big did it get? Did it get 12 or 14 inches long, did it get thick like a can of Fosters Beer? Does it hurt when she gives you head? Is she afraid to let you near her Whonanny with it? Can she get her hands around it... her mouth?

oh and one more thing... Breasts do seem to be getting more "main Stream" that is to say we are seeing much more of them. Watch the award shows and you will see plenty of dresses that expose plenty of breast. Any dress that requires tape to keep it legal is trying to hard. Some day soon, as one-ups-manship creeps along, there will come a day when Jenifer Lopez, or like, will show up with only a skirt and no blouse at all, or just the barest showing of fabric claiming to be a blouse. Stay tuned.

some why's of women

Why is it ok to compliment a woman on her hair... "wow You have remarkably shiny hair" or "That is a beautiful hair style" or "What a gorgeous dress you have on"? But if you tell her she has a shapely posterior or a magnificent pair of breasts you get your face slapped off your head?
I saw a woman at the grocery story with a stunning figure, tall and very very busty and very proportional.
I was awestruck and very much wanted to say something regarding her appearance, but she wasn't wearing any thing out of the ordinary and didn't have amazing hair or any thing socially acceptable to comment on. So I felt stuck for something to say. I don't think walking up to a stranger and saying "Wow you have magnificent breasts" is going to get you any thing but a harassment charge or some such. Even if you used the no sexually charged 'Breasts' word and not Titts or Boobs. It just cant be done.
Men on the other hand. I cant imagine a guy that wouldn't not be um... "flattered" to have a woman , covertly or overtly walk up to him and say "I couldn't help but notice your colossal Johnson there in your pocket, can I feel it?" No man would say no.
I can only imagine that it has something to do with predator and prey mentality.

…lines

Where is the line between a good healthy enthusiastic sex life and an addicted one? What does that line look like? Surely a healthy sex life shouldn't be boring "man on top get it over with quick".

If I direct my enthusiasm for sex at just my sweety can't that be a healthy sex life?

How do I define my sobriety? Is it not looking at porn on the internet, not lusting after other women, not masturbating, not fantasizing, not sex toys? All of that, some of that? Something I don't even know about that I do that I shouldn't be doing?

Internet porn is boring… a quick fix. It's a hit that lasts about 30 seconds. And recently I find it more and more repugnant. It makes me angry. Sort of like I hate that I have that ring in my nose and can be jerked around by it. But isn't that sort of part of the male condition of living… naked women… got to look. I hate that. I would like to think that I have more control than that, that I am more 'evolved'. Perhaps not. Perhaps in time.

So...

Lusting after other women… I have never really done that except one woman, and I am well past that. A year sober on that. More on that to be sure lots of feelings there but I am over it. None of the residual feelings are lustful or regretful except that I wish I hadn't gone there and caused so much hurt to all involved.

Masturbating… I am sober on that for over a year. And well over it also. Embarrassingly enough I can't seem to anymore anyway. And it always left me feeling even more empty than before the "craves" lead me there.

Fantasizing… I don't do much of that any more but when I do it's just my sweety. And it's just a few things… but I fear that if I indulge that fantasy muscle then the fantasy world would explode and be back to where it was before out of control. So I purposefully self sensor that except a few remaining points.

Sex toys… I threw away, easily, $2000.00 worth of toys both purchased and made by me over a year ago. I will say that I still love the idea of sex toys though.

…still more on breasts

Why are breasts nearly universally appreciated as beautiful? I wonder that it might be some societal thing about "western culture". I wonder that in aboriginal and tribal areas of the world that breasts are not 'worshiped' as much as in America. Some things appear to be universally perceived. Spiders and sharks are almost universally perceived as frightening.

Americans or western cultures seem to be obsessed with larger breasts. Tribal cultures don't appear to be.

On national Geographic Specials of South American Amazonian tribal peoples the women go about without covering their breasts. The men in the tribes don't seem to be very excited about it.

Why do men crave the breasts? Why would an adult man desire to suck a woman's breasts / nipples? That would seem like something an infant would do.

I wonder that I am so curious about this in an attempt to understand the attraction if I could understand it I could be less obsessed by them.