My Stuff - Motivations

    Why does anybody do what they do? 

    Do they do it because of societal or peer pressure? Do they want to do good because it is the right thing to do, morally speaking? Do they want to do good to be seen as a good person in their community? Do they do good because they want to appease God? Do they do good because they want to please God? And they want to be pleasing to God for the simple fact that it pleases God? Or are they climbing the stairway to heaven be being good in the sight of God.

    No one can really know, I don't think. Even those doing good might be conflicted by this question. I feel that if a person is boastful about his good deeds or goodness that is sort of a tell that they are doing good for the wrong reasons.

    I think this is a question that is between the individual and himself or the individual and God. I don't always know the exact phrasing but there is a scripture that reads something like "Only God can know the heart of a man."

    I can say that I have read the Bible cover to cover, once. But I didn't do it for the right reasons. I know that now. I did it because I was commuting by train 45 minutes each way. I was reading the local paper but found that I was not getting any 'nourishment' from that. So I set it as a goal to read the Bible. I did it I know that I did not get the very most out of such a read as I should or would have had I read it for the 'right' reason. What I did get out of that read was that I do recall many scriptures, perhaps not verbatim, but can come close in a pinch. And in some circles that is impressive enough to have made it all the more worth while for me. The next thing I got out of that read was a feeling of frustration on the part of Jesus. If you read the Gospels back to back to back... you come away feeling that Jesus kept having to repeat himself over and over ad nauseam. It felt like the disciples were just too thick to get it. Something that I did get was a feeling that Judas was an unfortunate company man. He was tasked with possibly the most onerous of tasks that has ever been. He was called upon to betray Jesus. To sell Jesus out to the Romans. None of the disciples did any kind of good by Jesus. They, each and every one of them, was a fuck. Peter who said that he would never sell out Jesus denied him three time in a single night. The rest couldn't even stay awake one crumby night praying with Jesus. Just one fucking night. I have stayed awake for nearly 80 hours for a work project with a ridiculous deadline. And in my opinion that is NOTHING compared to staying awake with your Lord and Savior for just on crumby night. Just one night. But in order for Judas to do his job the rest of the flunkies had to fall asleep or they would have spirited Jesus away from the Garden to some remote place safe from the Romans. And in order for the crucifixion to take place somebody had to turn Jesus over to the Romans. So it fell to Judas. He collected his 30 pieces of silver but later threw himself over a bridge for the guilt that he did feel. I don't believe that it was the 30 pieces that motivated Judas but the knowledge that someone had to do that or there could be no ransom sacrifice and no resurrection and on and on and on.

    Just my understanding. I am no theological so take this with a grain of salt.

My stuff - Observations

    I saw a thing at the Costco the other day. Its that time of the month and I can afford to go to Costco. Plus they were out of eggs when I went the other day so I was back.

    I saw the most unlikely couple that I think I have ever seen. I saw a pasty soft-body ginger boy being loved up by a remarkably hot young Goth Girl.

    In general I love the red hair. I say that, but I love the red hair on women, Not men. I don't know why red hair looks so wrong on men and so hot on women. Just me I suppose.

Society - Fear of Teenagers

    Teen killers. Teen assholes. Teens who don't care a damn bit about anything. Teenagers who want it all now and will take it from you if you have it, at gunpoint if necessary.

    The legacy media does NOT want this sort of news story to be let out of the bag. This a list of 11 such pieces of news. The NRA news magazine typically has three or four pages of short little listings of civilians who have judiciously and properly used fire arms to defend them selves. But HOOO LEEE Shit if that ever came to light. Gun control would take on an entirely different meaning. Like how to properly control your hand gun to defend yourself. Instead of the waste of paper that the socialist left pushes that we need yet more laws to prevent law abiding citizens from owning the security measures to protect themselves when the left de-funds the police.

    I looked this up on the google.

    What is ephebiphobia? People who have ephebiphobia (pronounced “efee-bi-FO-bee-ah”) have an extreme fear of adolescents or teenagers. The word comes from a combination of two Greek words: “ephebos,” meaning youth or adolescence, and “phobos,” which means fear. I am not afraid to admit to this phobia. Trans-phobia or homo-phobia not so much.

                                        Interesting. 

    I will admit to this   miso-  prefix meaning a hatred of xxx   added to the beginning of your identity here miso-trans-sexual or miso-homosexual. I am pretty certain that I am not typing this out properly but...  Call me intolerant all day long.

    I will also admit to this   suffix -misia  meaning a hatred of your identity here  added to the end of trans-misia and homo-misia.  I am pretty certain that I am not typing it out properly but...   Again call me an intolerant fuck all damn day.

My Stuff - Society - America

     I had an interesting interaction in the Costco parking lot tonight. While I was making my way to my typical parking area I passed two guys loading stuff into the back of their truck. They Smiled broadly at me as I passed by. You don't generally see that sort of behavior these days. Mostly a head down mind your own business attitude. So I thought I would walk back by and thank them for that. When I said thank you for their smiles their reply was " Its America Baby". I thought for a moment and replied " It is now" to which they said "It sure is, it sure is, aint live great Again." They leaned heavily on the Again. I said back "You are so right."

    I wonder if this rising tide of well wishes and returned gladness will continue?

I do hope so.                            

                   And this time I am not so very doubtful.

Society - Governments

    Why does it seem that all Totalitarian government led armies march the Goose Step with the knee high Jack Boots? What is that all about? the Russians, the North Koreans, the Chinese. I haven't seen the Iranian army marching. Mostly I have seen them getting blown up their tanks as A10 Warthogs make short work of them. So I can only speculate on their marching style. But I imagine them to be Goose stepping right down the main boulevard of the capital city of Tehran. Or secretly arresting young women for not wearing their head scarves properly as proscribed by the Koran.

    How is it that the Muslim community will throw a literal shit fit blowing up newspapers for printing a cartoon of Muhammad with a bomb in his turban. But us peaceable Christian have to endure the "Critically acclaimed" Piss Christ art installation. An aquarium filled with piss the source of which I an unsure of Crucifix nestled at the bottom of this aquarium filled with piss. Hence the title "Piss Christ"

    At the time I heard about this It made me laugh. Has Modern Art so completely run out of creativity and decorum that they will applaud this sort of thing? When I was about 4 years old I was seated in front of a large roll of news print paper with water color paint and let loose. I painted a mess. And I do recall the mess that it was to this day. But my mother who was indeed a real artist thought it was wonderful. I had taped the ads and subscription cards from magazines to the paper and painted the as well. My mother proudly framed it and hung it on a prominent wall in our house. Years later there came a young girl who was hailed as a "Master Artist". His name Advait Kolarkar was bandied about with the likes of Picasso and other grand masters. I saw her work and was immediately reminded of my four year old art piece. If my mother had kept that I might be a Master Artist but as it stands I am a proud retired Prototype Model Maker. If a person can be born to do a thing Model Making was what I was born to do, truly.

    Oh one more thing. When I heard about the Piss Christ O wondered what the world would come to If I filled an aquarium with Pig urine floated a copy of the Koran to the bottom with three thick cut strips of bacon adorning the book along with a couple of undressed Barbie dolls fixed in provocative poses. I probably wouldn't be typing this right now. I wonder what will happen if by some stupid set of circumstance a devout muslim were to read this would I wake up tomorrow dead with my throat slit and my computer smashed.

    Oh yeah Goose Stepping Fuck Off Armies. You really have to give it to the Chinese. Those fuckers all have the same dower look of abject depression and misery but they can march the fuck out of those boots.