Voting

As you have no doubt heard there is an election coming up, again.

I am just not sure how to vote.
If i vote for the corrupt incumbents we get screwed yet again.
If I vote for the newbies full of idealism and vigor the corrupt incumbents will corrupt them and stonewall their every effort to do any good for "We the people".

And if we did manage to sweep all the incumbents out and replace them with well intention-ed new wave of government screws they would soon be corrupted by the corporate screws looking to maintain the status quo. And it they managed to avoid that trap and did managed to pass positive legislation that would benefit "We the people" activist Judges would shoot it down by saying the tried and true "I find that to be unconstitutional" and out it goes. There should be a damn program called "Constitution Check" like a Spell check that makes sure that you don't waste so darn much time and money writing stupid laws that are simply going to be erased by a single judge no mater how many people vote for the law a single judge can with the stroke of a pen wipe it away. What ever happened to the "Will of the people"? Just one Judge can come along and "Interpret" the constitution his way and make that call and totally disregard the People. And he is not even elected. There is NO recourse for "We the People". That is sort of like the "artists concept" disclaimer.

So if I sound a bit disillusioned I am, Very. I think that is what they want, to make it so complicated and disheartening that no one will give a rats ass and they can continue to rape and pillage "We the people".

This year is a watershed year for elections. On one hand we are saddled with a doddering senile old dictator who is well known to be corrupt but is protected by a "cabal" a cadre of powerful, influential intractable, greed driven, warmongering, cant say no to any crazy idea that pops its head up from the cesspool of society that is America today. His closest adviser is his son. A former crack smoking drug-addicted weirdo.

    25th Amendment.

    Here's a joke...  If there are six lines of equal length, how high will Hunter be after he returns from the bathroom? 

This doddering old dictator excuse me doddering old pants shitting dictator. Shitting his pants at the Vatican. Are you SHITTING me? Pun absolutely intended. It boggles the mind as to who among us can keep making excuse after excuse for these failings in a WORLD leader.  His total and absolute lack of ability to string together a sentence during a press conference, an interview or a debate gives me pause to wonder just how badly he is representing AMERICA, arguably the most powerful nation on the planet, behind closed doors. It also begs the question, who is propping up his decisions? Who is making "his" decisions? Who is making the decisions that are behind his press conferences? Who are the puppet masters? And, finally, it begs the question when he does appear  to be sentient, lucid, awake, aware of his surroundings, sensible, well considered, ALL the things a World Leader should exhibit, during the occasional spasm of lucidity, just how much of the Adrenaline, Epinephrine, Nor-epinephrine, Meth Amphetamine, Adderall and Ritalin cocktail do his handlers have to dose him with? His blood "cocktail" percentage must be about 50/50. and this likely explains why he has to be forcibly led off stage when after his surge of lucidity brought about by this "cocktail" wares off and his mind crashes. It causes me to wonder who's cocaine was found in the White House. And how was that incident made to disappear so quickly and completely? If that was ANY other president the TRUTH would have been found out. and exposed. Even if only to hang the guilt on some junior staffer, who's drug addled past/present would be ficitfied and fabricated so deeply and completely and convincingly that even the staffer would believe in his guilt. (Read; 1984 Rat in a face cage scenario)  It is WAY to coincidental that Hunter, an known addict and wandering the halls of the White House was not Heavily investigated. Blood samples taken, blood toxicity panels performed and those results made public.

It boggles my mind just how much power the Obamas and the Clinton's still hold in the oval office. I recently heard that Hillary talks on the phone to the white House DAILY.

What was the phrase made famous by "Deep Throat" in the now long forgotten Woodward and Bernstein's outing of President Nixon. "Follow the Money". Where ever there is money there is power and where there is power there is corruption.

Words of Wisdom

    This is an essay written by the much esteemed Paul Harvey many years ago. See if you don't recognize any of this in today's society. You likely don't of Mr. Paul Harvey except that maybe your grand/great grand parents have mentioned him to you. The link will play a YouTube audible file of Mr. Paul Harvey reading this essay.

 

"If I were the Devil": A Warning to America From Paul Harvey.

 

“If I were the devil … If I were the Prince of Darkness, I’d want to engulf the whole world in darkness. And I’d have a third of its real estate, and four-fifths of its population, but I wouldn’t be happy until I had seized the ripest apple on the tree — Thee. So I’d set about however necessary to take over the United States. I’d subvert the churches first — I’d begin with a campaign of whispers. With the wisdom of a serpent, I would whisper to you as I whispered to Eve: ‘Do as you please.

To the young, I would whisper that ‘The Bible is a myth.’ I would convince them that man created God instead of the other way around. I would confide that what’s bad is good, and what’s good is ‘square.’ And the old, I would teach to pray, after me, ‘Our Father, which art in Washington…

And then I’d get organized. I’d educate authors in how to make lurid literature exciting, so that anything else would appear dull and uninteresting. I’d threaten TV with dirtier movies and vice versa. I’d pedal narcotics to whom I could. I’d sell alcohol to ladies and gentlemen of distinction. I’d tranquilize the rest with pills.

If I were the devil I’d soon have families at war with themselves, churches at war with themselves, and nations at war with themselves; until each in its turn was consumed. And with promises of higher ratings I’d have mesmerizing media fanning the flames. If I were the devil I would encourage schools to refine young intellects, but neglect to discipline emotions — just let those run wild, until before you knew it, you’d have to have drug sniffing dogs and metal detectors at every schoolhouse door.

Within a decade I’d have prisons overflowing, I’d have judges promoting pornography — soon I could evict God from the courthouse, then from the schoolhouse, and then from the houses of Congress. And in His own churches I would substitute psychology for religion, and deify science. I would lure priests and pastors into misusing boys and girls, and church money. If I were the devil I’d make the symbols of Easter an egg and the symbol of Christmas a bottle.

If I were the devil I’d take from those who have, and give to those who want until I had killed the incentive of the ambitious.

And what do you bet I could get whole states to promote gambling as the way to get rich? I would caution against extremes and hard work in Patriotism, in moral conduct. I would convince the young that marriage is old-fashioned, that swinging is more fun, that what you see on the TV is the way to be. And thus, I could undress you in public, and I could lure you into bed with diseases for which there is no cure. In other words, if I were the devil I’d just keep right on doing what he’s doing.”

Paul Harvey, good day.

 

Prayers Answered?

    I haven't been very posty lately. I tend to shut down when I shut down. By shut down I mean be depressed and I stop communicating with others and by extension blogging.

    My depression has been an extension of a long "bitter" fight with my sweety about our sex life. Towards the end I was going crazy. I had answered a craigslisting sexvert. I didn't follow through thankfully. I sought out the help of several professional Dr. types. I was looking for some relief for the burring desire for sexual... something release, healing, communication, some, all who knows. I was desperate. I tried to get a shot of Depo Provera. Chemical castration said to dramatically suppress the male sex drive. They use Depo in penitentiaries on recidivist sex offenders. Apparently living in a small town with few options that is impossible. Then it happened. I cant say what the "It" is but it happened. I am no longer even remotely interested in sex with my sweety or any woman for that mater. Now I find the idea of sex to be a some what revolting idea. Its been near two months since last I even saw sweety naked and I couldn't be better with it. I love her and love being with her but the idea of sex is just frightening and very off putting. When I think of sex I feel ugly and small. I don't know even what to make of this development. We shall see. On one level it is the answer to a prayer and on the other I feel that I have lost a large portion of who I am. I feel like some one has surgically reached into my brain and excised that portion of my brain. I don't feel like a "Man" any more. But that feeling is welcome compared to the fire in my brain from before.

have you ever...

    have you ever felt so small , so insignificant so ugly that you very much wanted to die except for that darn pesky self preservation reflex... That you wonder about God himself and beginning to rethink that whole infallibility thing.

snapped

    Today I snapped. I issue this phrase a lot… Don't burn down the present in your pursuit to build the future… but today it is done… not to say that it can't be undone but it is done for the person.

    What is the rule/ social regulation regarding monogamy?

    I love My Sweety and I am committed to my Sweety… I really am. I have so very much overhauled myself to fit hers… and… well the square peg is working its way back loose from the round hole because there is no accommodation at all in the round hole of her life for this square peg. There is simply put no room in her life for me.

    What is the rule about a couple that is committed to each other but due to some outside reason they don't have sex? The person for whom sex is impossible, is it their responsibility to see that their partner is afforded something of their needs sexually if not from within the couple then from without?

    What is the morality line here? If the person has some paraplegia that prevents them from engaging in sex with their partner; is it reasonable that the person without the condition to have to go without? Is it just horrible for the person without the condition to seek the sexual comforts of another if their primary love is incapacitated? What about the situation where one chooses to be unavailable, such as the case of being in a relationship with a workaholic. Is it reasonable for the workaholic to condemn their partner to a live deprived of sexual outlet?

    I understand that "it is not possible to change others… only yourself" or words to that effect. Isn't it incumbent on you if you enter into a relationship with another to make changes in yourself for your partner? I don't mean to say a total over haul or anything unreasonable… I do suppose that does leave the door open to the idea of interpretation of what is reasonable or not.

    My brain is so on fire just now I am so enraged and frustrated by this situation. I can scarcely speak/type.

    I feel so emasculated, so much like a child, so much like a small annoying pet or piece of furniture.

    I really wonder where she keeps my balls. Someday soon I will find then and…