unemployment more

Another reason unemployment sucks... the cronic rejection of applying for jobs or even worse is the even more prevelant the feeling of being ignored completely. There is no more going and meeting a manager face to face for applying for jobs. "That is all handled online now Thanks for asking though." So you go online and apply and submit a resume and wait and... nothing not a thank you for applying not a we aren't hiring right now even just... nothing. It feels like your submission spilled out the end of some network/internet cable some where on to a floor where someone, with a job, wiped it up and environmentally appropriately disposed of it. It worries me that I failed to do something correctly and that the application didnt get submitted or something... you just dont know. That feeling creeps up on you after a while. I worry that the longer I say unemployed the less likely it is that I will get rehired. some how I am no-longer current enough on any level to be worth hiring. It feels like you stop knowing things in general... may that is just me.

This must be what actors who are starting out go through at some level.

It really batters your self... well everything, worth, confidence, (and the dreaded) esteem. It batters your image of your self as a man... cant support yourself let alone a family. I think that most men are very tied into what they do for work as who they are as a person. Question; Who are you... Answer, I am an engineer. Possibly that is because lots of men my self included/especially that is all they do... work at what ever it is that they do.

The weird part of all this as I recall from my econ class, decades ago, that the unemployment rate was supposed to be at or about 10%. I don't recall the whys and therefore's but I recall that figure. And as I understand it the unemployment rate is at or about 9 and some percent now.

…wow

I used to have such respect for the whole of Thomas Jefferson's thoughts and ideas as one of the brightest individuals ever was just crushed when I read this about his thinking regarding the Native American tribes of his time. I was heart broke to read it. It seems that his idea was to get them so deeply in debt to American business they would be forced to acculturate and settle down. It did, however, lay the ground work for what has happened to America today… Get the populace in debt and keep him that way. Then the corporations/Government will have total control of the populace. The Democrats would be so proud to see their work is so deeply rooted in America's history.

more on unemployment part deaux

Unemployment really screws with your sense of belonging and worth. If you have no real job to be at and no rhythm in your days a powerful feeling of inertia can set in. I am busy doing things for people that I think i would normal be paid for but as I said unemployment messes with your sense of worth so I don't ask for pay. I feel that some how if I ask for pay then I am not a goof person or that they will not have me around to do these things.
It doesn't take much to push that feeling over the top and have you sitting and trolling the internet for stuff or watching TV or any thing nonproductive. For me its the cold. The cold sets me to doing nothing. I must have frost nipped my hands last year while being macho and riding the motorcycle in the 26 degree weather. My hands start aching so bad at the least drop of the thermostat. And I am being cheap on electricity because I am BROKE and not using the heater. The house stays at about 54 degrees unassisted. It doesn't matter that I am wearing three shirts and a jacket two long under-wares and sweatpants, I am still cold.
I just dread going outside.
This is what agoraphobics must feel like.

more on unemployment part une

Being unemployed for a LONG time really messes with your head... really. This morning I got up to go to work (temporary though it is) at 4:00 am. I thought to my self maybe I will get hit by a truck on the Foggy highway and then I wont have to mess with this again

unemployment sucks

I have been out of work for something over a year now. I have been picking up odd jobs here and there for friends now and again but by and large there is just nothing going on work wise. I have nearly two and half decades of experience at my profession and I am thinking that I am going to loose all that to a job in a warehouse or UPS or something like that IF I can even get that!
I talked to a guy while standing out side the Costco waiting for it to open the other day. He has been out of work almost two years. It seems that in another year or so his social security will kick in. He is in school now but he is "seriously" considering just taking the early retirement thing with the social security and "living small'.
I was having panic attacks about winding up homeless which manifest themselves as gagging and retching... most unpleasant.